I see everyone’s pictures on the web. It makes me sad knowing this would be Cole’s second year in college. I think it would have been Julliard. He was a gifted pianist. It’s been over two years and I miss him tremendously. I just can’t phathom more years away from him. I know he wants me to be happy and he sends me all sorta of signs,feathers,coins and songs. It is completely unbearable somedays. I have good days. They are few and far between. It’s just how it is and there is no changing that. You grieve as deeply as you love. I love him to the moon and back. He was my baby boy. Addiction stole him from me. I am thankful for all the work dealing with addiction and getting help that is happining now. I get angry sometimes because there was no help for us back then. I made a pack to help raise awareness and I succeeded. I just wish I didn’t have to loose him.
Back to School
27 Thursday Aug 2015
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